Tuesday, May 22, 2012Exams at 1:11 PM
This is pretty much me cramming for exams and assignments.
I am slowly succumbing into the delirious state of stress/hysteria and all my efforts are going into summoning the superpowers I use to get into my head a semester's worth of material.
There are so many other things to do besides cramming, which makes life really fun doesn't it.
Recently, my diet consists of meal replacement shakes, blue V (higher guarana content) and vitamins. I don't know if it is the impending exams and the extended to-do's list or my fucked up routines that is tearing my consciousness slowly away from reality. DUM DUM DUM
I am playing a game. A game where I try and finish a 3000 word report in a night. It is quite fun! Don't worry, it's not due tomorrow. Sometimes I just like to treat myself to fun, you know. I mean, even I have to let loose once in a while.
*update*: okay now it is due tomorrow. ahhhfuk.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012Not The One at 6:26 PM
Monday, May 14, 2012Tears at 4:18 PM
What does it mean when you try and cope and battle on through reality, you try your best to regulate thoughts, implement strategies to get by well, but things still manage to get to you when your defences are completely down...i.e. when you are asleep.
I just wanted a good nights sleep. I didn't want to be shouting and crying and feeling helpless and lost and then wake up to feel the exact same way. Now I feel like it is really hard to cope again. I try extremely hard to remind myself that no matter what I must cope, I must carry on by myself, I must be the one who pulls myself back upright, and not succumb to bad, destructive habits.
There is only a singular direction to move, and that is forward. I really hope that I find the strength within myself to push myself out of this rut and survive well. If I can get through this all on my own, I am sure I can handle a lot more in the future, whatever may come. In the end, I must survive...but for now, let me cry.
Today... at 4:20 AM
Today...I looked in the mirror and realised how ugly I am.
Friday, May 11, 2012Cheers! at 6:20 PM
Today is a day to celebrate. Here is a list why:
Thursday, May 10, 2012The Newest Member of the Family at 3:49 AM
...yeah i went a bit crazy pig lady
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